Thanks God!

God,
You are so awesome!
So awe inspiring!

I was driving around the countryside in my work truck the other day. I was day dreaming, on a gravel road, probably only traveled by the people who lived on the only farm for two miles. A huge bald eagle flew past my windshield. I slammed on the brakes and stopped right in the middle of the road. This eagle hovered over my truck for a few seconds, then made a big loop around me, and flew off to the west. I saw another eagle in the distance, I assume its mate, and they flew gracefully through the air together. I came back to reality, and from the radio I heard Chris Tomlin singing,
"And I will rise when He calls my name,
No more sorrow, no more pain.
I will rise on eagles' wings,
Before my God,
Fall on my knees
And rise
I will rise."

I wish I could put into words how that felt, to know God was there with me, helping me with my troubled heart.

You are amazing, God!
Thank you for being my Father.
Thank you for being my Everything.

What would you do-oo-oo?

What would you do for a Klondike bar?
I'm not a big ice cream fan, so not much,
But what would you do for salvation?
For eternity?
For ever, and ever, and ever?
For your Father?
Your Creator?
Your Friend?

Great is thy faithfulness.

I had that song stuck in my head this morning and I wondered why.
Why the Lord of all Creation would care to know my name, would have any interest in me whatsoever. I'm just one person on a planet of billions of people. Successful people, brave people, courageous people, intelligent people, people with many resources and influence. I have very little of these things in comparison, but yet I feel Him calling out my name. Calling to me, out of all those people.

Great is thy faithfulness.
I only pray that my faithfulness will prove to be as such.

Ex-communication?

I enjoy Facebook.
I can communicate with those hundred or so people I just don't see as often as I'd like to. I have made some new friends, and found family members who have moved away. Its a great tool to stay connected in a busy world.
But for some, its still a popularity contest, and for others, a vehicle to spread the word for their causes and groups. Its a great way to ask for prayers or to spread good news and great joy.

I "liked" a group called, "Going to church doesn't make you a Christian any more than standing in a garage makes you a car."

I love that. Its a great illustration of the truth that so many people don't see. So many people claim to be things they aren't, and so many people seem to claim Christianity falsely. Some of these people do believe that what they are doing is for Jesus, but Jesus is love, and anything that is not love, is not Jesus. I think one of satan's best ploys is to disguise himself as a person doing God's work, and then get others to follow, down into the darkness of lies, anger, prejudice,and false teachings. Please, don't fall for the lies of the accuser!

Can anyone who spreads hate, fear and violence call themselves a Christian?
Can anyone who tries to exclude people from God's love and mercy call themselves a Christian?
Can anyone who oppresses others call themselves a Christian?
Can a Christian say who is "too far gone" to receive God's mercy?
No, when Jesus tells us in Matthew 7 not to judge, He is saying that we cannot judge anyone else's relationship with God. We cannot see within their heart, only God can, and that is why He, and only He, is the Judge. We have been warned not to judge, and told to love.

~Love, love love. That's what its all about.~

The Good News is for everyone, Christians and non-Christians alike. The Good News is that Jesus died for our sins, the sins of all men, and He is the one who decides who is and is not a true follower of His teachings. He decides who He will defend when we come in front of the Judge. And He says, in John 8:12 "I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life."

So if anyone ever tells you that for some reason, you cannot receive the love and mercy that Christ gave you when He died on the Cross for your sins, call that accuser a liar, and walk away into the arms of the One who loves you.

Radiance

The Trinity

The brightest white orb, glowing, I couldn't even look directly at it. It was stark white, completely pure with no defects, yet somehow warm, emitting love, knowledge of all things, and secrets that it will never unveil, and a complete peacefulness that no one on earth has ever felt during conciousness. It's the essence of everything, of all existance, and I knew it as I existed in its presence. It could divide itself, into two or three, or probably more if it wanted to, but it didn't. It gave me the realization that every person on this earth has a tiny drop, or piece of it in their chest. We can't see it ourselves, but the orb can. The blazing orb, much brighter than the sun because it created the sun, dripped a tiny dot of itself into every person, into every soul as it entered a body. Even though it kept adding these tiny pieces to each body, it never lost any of its mass. It stayed the same size, no matter if it was one, or two, or three.

Energy cannot be created or destroyed.

That is true, to a certain degree. The orb is what can create or destroy energy, because it is the source of all energy. Trillions to the nth degree of megatons of energy. We don't have numbers big enough to describe how massive it is.

Its uncontainable!! Indescribable!!

The reason our ancestors, even before they knew about God, knew there was a higher power is because that tiny piece of the orb, the energy, is always wanting to go back to God. God is not a man, nor a woman. God is God. God is amazing. God is awesome.

I've been struggling to understand the Trinity for years. Trying to come up with some imagery to explain it, but I never could. Then one night, as I was falling asleep, I saw all this in my head, in my dreams, awake, yet asleep. I awoke with a strange understanding that this is how God is. I also saw that God doesn't send people to hell, they choose it. Hell is simply being without God. The piece of the orb is destroyed instead of being reabsorbed, because that person chose other things over God. The piece of the orb can't come back because it is defected, and the orb is perfect.
The orb is the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit.  For ever and ever, Amen.

Insecurity

Sometimes, we all want to be that popular kid, the one with all the friends.
I've never been that kid.
I've never been that adult.
Sure I have friends.
But do they know the real me?
Would they still like me if they knew all my dark little secrets?
My dark little sins?
My dark big sins?
Would they be embarrassed of me?
Would they stand by me if they knew what I really believe?
What I really think?
Who I really am?
What's the make-up of my being?
What am I made of?
Sugar and spice and everything nice?
What are my values and what does that say about me as a person?
As a Christian?
As a mother?
As a wife?
As a daughter of the MOST HIGH GOD?
As a friend.
As a follower.

I don't know the answer, exactly.
But I know my Father does.
He loves me no matter what.
And He knows EVERYTHING.

Behold, I stand at the door and knock...

Have you ever heard the saying, "Whenever one door closes, another one opens"?
Its usually when someone has lost something they cherished, or needed, or wanted.
And most times, it really doesn't feel like there's any other doors open, just swinging in the breeze. Its usually hindsight that lets us see the door that opened for us. And I know sometimes that door doesn't open right away. Sometimes God makes us squirm a little.

Is it to test our faith? Maybe. Or maybe the door can't be opened until exactly the right time for God's magic to work in your life the way He intends. Or maybe its a little of both.
But have you ever experienced multiple doors opening all at the same time?
Just hanging there, swinging in the breeze?

Just pick one.

I wish I could read the ending. You know, the multiple ending kind of book -where you can see how the different choices turned out for the main character- and then pick which one you like best?
Wouldn't that be easy..
But maybe...
...maybe it would ruin the adventure.